Lyrics
I been sleepwalking through the fire
Calling it love, calling it"us"
Holding my breath in barbed wire
Bleeding and blaming the cut on trust
You say"Stay, it'll get better"
I hear the echo, I don't hear proof
Every apology typed in a letter
Felt like graffiti sprayed on a roof
Took my peace and pawned it for moments
Cheap little highs with a heavy fee
How many scars till I own it
Some things I love ain't meant for me yeah
So I cut you from my future
Even though my past still craves
Every memory's a user
Turning all my soft to brave
If it hurts, I gotta lose it
Even if it feels like home
I won't die inside to prove it
I'd rather heal alone, alone (alone)
I been addicted to my damage
Feeding the wolf that chews my pride
Calling it art, calling it passion
It was just fear dressed up in lies
Friends that only call when they're drowning
Habits that drag me under too
Pouring my soul in people that's counting
Everything I give, not what I go through
Gotta throw flowers on this coffin
Bury the versions that kept me weak
Love isn't love when it's toxic
Missing you less every time I breathe yeah, yeah
So I cut you from my future
Even though my past still craves
Every memory's a user
Turning all my soft to brave
If it hurts, I gotta lose it
Even if it feels like home
I won't die inside to prove it
I'd rather heal alone, alone alone
If I gotta choose between me and the pain
I'm picking me every time, every day every day
If I gotta burn every bridge in the rain
I'll watch it drown just to walk away
So I cut you from my future
Even though my past still craves
Every memory's a user
Turning all my soft to brave
If it hurts, I gotta lose it
Even if it feels like home
I won't die inside to prove it
I'd rather heal alone, alone yeah