Farewell Wanderlust

"You look like I need a drink," he winked

As he slipped from my grasp to the bar, "And you are?"

He said, "Me?" (me), "Little me?" (little me)

He called (he called) from the brink of the day (from the brink of the day)

He said, "Hey, darling, hey, hey, darling, hey

I'm the hardest goodbye that you'll ever have to say"

You don't know it yet, but I'm the cupid of things

That you just didn't get, that you struggled to say

I'm the saint of the paint that was left in the pot

I'm your angel ellipsis, your devil of dots

Every time that you fumble, I'm the laugh from the back

When you think about him, my wings start to flap

When you make a mistake, my feet lift from the floor

And when you lie there awake every night, love, I soar

I promise you I'll be better

I promise you I'll try

But like rubbing wine stains into rugs, it's my curse

To try and make it right, but by trying make it worse

I'm the heartbreak that aches far too much to be shunned

All those letters unsent and that garden ungrown

I'm the captain of courage that you've eternally lacked

I'm the Jesus of wishing to Christ he'll come back

Because farewell wanderlust, you've been, oh, so kind

You brought me to this party, but you left me here behind

So long to the person you begged me to be

She's down, she's dead

Instead what is left but this old satin dress

And the mess that you left

When you told me that I wasn't right in the head

"You alright?," asked the boys from beyond

You gave us such a fright

We'd hate to see your mascara drip into your pint

Might you allow me to slip into something more comfortable then?

Be our guest

With a hoik of her bra, she waved to the bar, and slipped into the night

"Come, devil, come," she sang, "Call out my name"

Let's take this outside, 'cause we're one and the same

Our gods have abandoned us, left us instead

Take up arms, take my hand, let us waltz for the dead

I'm the face that stares back when the screen goes to black

When your mom says you look healthy

But you know she means you got fat

I'm the tales that the guests will applaud and believe

I'm the child that you just didn't have time to conceive

I promise you I'm not broken, I promise you there's more

More to come, more to reach for, more to hurl at the door

Goodbye to all my darkness, there's nothing here but light

Adieu to all the faceless things that sleep with me at night

This here is not makeup, it's a porcelain tomb

And this here is not singing, I'm just screaming in tune

Because farewell wanderlust, you've been ever so kind

You brought me through this darkness, but you left me here behind

And so long to the person you begged me to be

He's down, he's dead

Now take a good long look at what you've done to me

He's down, he's dead

He's gone, oh, he's lost

He's flown, he's fled

Now take a good long look at what you've all done to me