Noir

I wish I could know what is wrong with me

All I try to show seems to go unseen

So much space between myself and anything

Further away I stray, I feel myself fade

Overwhelming intrusive thoughts

Staring into the sun

Pull me down

I am only stepping stones

Shadow of my silhouette

Blade in my spine

Mine all mine

Forever in debt to my reclusive mind

Noir in my eyes

Blood spills when I cry

I can't escape it, so I embrace it

I remember the days before the sky was always so gray

Before my smiles were not just hiding the pain