Midnight Confessiona

Hmm

Hmm

It's 12:47 and I should be asleep

But my mind don't let me rest that deep

I got questions with no reply

And memories that won't let me lie

I told everyone I'm fine, smiled through the day

But truth always finds its way at night anyway

This pillow done heard it all

From heartbreak to numbers, I still wanna call

I light a candle, pour a glass

Say I'm done with the past

Then scroll right back to old pictures, old texts

Still lookin' for closure in a place that left

These are my midnight confessions

Thoughts I bury in the day but can't suppress

When the world gets quiet and I'm wide awake

Siftin' through every damn mistake I made

I still miss him, I just don't say it

Still check on friends who let the bond fade quick

Still wonder if I'm hard to love

Or if I just keep choosin' the wrong kind of touch

I practice forgiveness I ain't mastered yet

Try to move on but retrace every step

My mind be loud when the lights go low

Tellin' secrets I don't let nobody know

I still rehearse arguments, I'll never have

Replay things I should have said, then take 'em back

I talk to God more when I'm hurtin', but even He'd know

I keep some burdens curtained

And I journal in my head, write lines in the dark

Compose apologies that never leave my heart

Ain't no audience for this type of truth

Just me, my regrets, and the ghost of you

These are my midnight confessions

Thoughts I bury in the day but can't suppress

When the world gets quiet and I'm wide awake

Siftin' through every damn mistake I made

I still miss him, I just don't say it

Still check on friends who let the bond fade quick

Still wonder if I'm hard to love

Or if I just keep choosin' the wrong kind of touch

I'm healin' out loud in a room with no ears

Tellin' the truth I've avoided for years

And maybe tomorrow I'll lie again