seventeen

Am I a fool to wake up from this dream

Am I a fool to chase away our seams

Am I a fool for trying to disagree

When I asked you to scare away my fears

When I was 17

I had no money or problems

Barely 23

Now my world feels so small

Will you remember me

When it's time to go home

It's not enough

I'm not enough

When I was 17

I had my head in the clouds

I'm barely 23

Now I'm scared to look down

Can't see in front of me

Turned my car back around

It's not enough

I'm not enough

But it's not up to me

How I'm put in the ground

When you bury me deep

I'll wear a lavender crown

If I lie to you now

If I admit it

Could I make you proud

Just for a minute

Take this weight upon me

So exhausting

Cold and haunting

Take this weight like boulders

Crush these shoulders

I got a little older

When I was 17

I had no money or problems

Barely 23

Now my world feels so small

Will you remember me

When it's time to go home

It's not enough

I'm not enough

When I was 17

I had my head in the clouds

I'm barely 23

Now I'm scared to look down

Can't see in front of me

I turned my car back around

It's not enough

I'm not enough

Wish I could fix my drive with some pills I bought on Amazon

Don't need a ride, my own legs' enough to drag me on

I'll be fine, my whole life's enough to gamble on

To gamble on

I bet a year on the work

And a year on the run

They said don't be absurd

It's not supposed to be fun

If you wanted a life