Crucible

I built my faith out of noise and motion

Called it love when it looked like control

Said I'd fix what was broken inside me

If You'd just leave me alone

Every prayer I prayed was hollow

A bargain wrapped in fear

I said I'd find my own salvation

But You never disappeared

I carried the weight

Till it bent my spine

I called it strength

But it was pride

In the crucible, I see it now

I was never meant to make it out alone

Every scar that I held as proof

Was just a door You'd already known

And when I broke, You didn't turn away

You waited for the fall

In the crucible, I learned to say

I can't save myself at all

I've been kneeling in the ashes

Calling it peace when it was fear

Trying to earn what You gave freely

But I could never bring it near

The more I fought, the more I fractured

The closer You became

It wasn't wrath that found me here

It was grace, it was flame

Strip me down

To the bone and breath

Take the crown

I forged from death

In the crucible, I see it now

I was never meant to stand that tall

Every chain that I tried to break

Was one You died to take for all

And when I fell, You didn't walk away

You caught me through the fall

In the crucible, I learned to say

I can't save myself at all

Oh, I was trying to be my own savior

A god made of skin and fear

But You tore the temple walls apart

And met me in my ruin here

You said I was never meant to carry it

And I believed You

For the first time

In the crucible, You found me there

In the heat, in the smoke, in the air

Every sin I tried to drown

Was already buried in Your crown

And when I reached the end of me

Your mercy called it home

In the crucible, I finally see

I can't save myself

I was never alone

The fire fades

The gold remains

You never left

You never changed