I wish I was the same

Yeah

I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain

It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering

If I'm still struggling and underneath I am

I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam

So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?

When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying

When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying

Please don't ask me to open up, 'cause I won't know what to say

And don't ask me for any trust; I just feel there's no way

Every person that I dared broke it every single day

There's no chance to rebuild it, they broke it every way

And I wish I was the person that I was yesterday

I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain

It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering

If I'm still struggling and underneath I am

I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam

So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?

When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying

When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying

And then I'll tell you next time, I hope you don't think I'm lying

And it's hard to be me, and it's hard not to care

And when I tell them about my problems, they can't help but stare

And maybe I'm crazy, or maybe too aware

That this life is kinda shitty, I don't really care

I'm just asking for the old me to please reappear

'Cause I'm all out of gas and I don't know how to steer

And anybody in my past, I wish you could hear

Then old me if you're listening, I wish you were here

I also wish I was the same, but nowadays, I numb the pain

It hurts me when my mother came and told me she was wondering

If I'm still struggling and underneath I am

I'm just scared of her not loving me, a failure to my fam

So what's the point of being me? What's the point of trying?

When I tell you how I feel, you just tell me that I'm lying

When I hide behind those walls, it's because I'm fuckin' crying

And then I'll tell you next time, I hope you don't think I'm lying