Lyrics
Over the years, changed what I believed
The things I would think
The things I said I'd never do
Would probably be in disbelief
If I spoke of the things
I've tried and now I can't undo
Although there's lots of good I achieved
Secrets occurring
In private that they never knew
Sorry to all those that I deceived
Not my upbringing
I was taught to have a different view
I'd fight my mind but I
Got exhausted
I'm tired
Been goody goody my whole life
Best behavior all the time
Never cussed
Never smoked
Never tried
I'd fight my mind 'cause I
Got tempted
Won't lie
Been scared of that my whole life
Family addiction on both sides
Never drank
Never blank
Never mind
Over the years new trauma on me
Changed who I would be
I'm not disappointed, just confused
The mindset that I had on repeat
Hard to admit defeat
Hard to say older me excused
It's not that I no longer agree
It's just now that I see
Why others thought the way they do
I'm more open to less of extremes
Somewhere in between
That allows mistakes to be made too
I'd fight my mind but I
Got exhausted
I'm tired
Been goody goody my whole life
Best behavior all the time
Never cussed
Never smoked
Never tried
I'd fight my mind 'cause I
Got tempted
Won't lie
Been scared of that my whole life
Family addiction on both sides
Never drank
Never blank
Never mind
I once told you if I ever tried
Please take it as a sign
That somethings isn't right