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1980 - Pittsburgh Pennsylvania yep that's where I was born
Mom raised her 4 boys herself after the divorce
Without Dad's discipleship we lacked passion for the Lord
My soul was actually nasty and ghastly to the core
Bro spiritually speaking I was actually a corpse
Like dead bodies that have been wrapped up in the morgue
Desires for Messiah? No I didn't have diddly!
A slave to the pride and the violence that's within me
In the early Nineties moved to the east side of the city
I began to prize it - it was vibrant and gritty
The black kids at school - quickly had me fascinated
But my lack of brown skin had me mad and aggravated
We all assumed black and white based on the construct
Based on our optic - never thought we should stop it
Acceptance was what I was obsessed with at my school
I impressed them that I'm cool I'm an exception to the rule
But some bullies unruly - would shame and pick on me
For my Race ethnicity - but I would take it instantly
Because I thought I deserved it - from our nation's history
Of enslavement & the ways of discriminating wickedly
I lied to get known I despised my skin tone
Under Karl Kani jeans I would hide my thin bones
Disguised with baggy pants Mom bought fellows loads
The only cross that I loved was cross color clothes
16 years old I began to drop stellar flows
I longed for the props and to rock hella shows
Into Rockefella? No I was a WuTang fan
Dreamed I'd be the lightest member of the Wu Tang Clan
I wasn't loving God I was such a fraud
And I used my skin color just to be an underdog
To sneak attack cats in rap battles
With my backpack I back-slapped wack rappers out their saddles
This is my story when I was lost and heartless
This is my story when I walked in constant darkness
I longed for the praise of man and not the Great I AM
I used race for my praise - it was a blatant scam
This is my story when I was lost and heartless
This is my story when I walked in constant darkness