Just Made This Way

I was raised to be tough keep my guard up high

Smile in public cry when I'm by myself at night

I give my heart then I second-guess

Say I'm fine while I'm a tangled mess

I love too deep I pull away

Say I'm done then I ask you to stay

I know my words cut sharp sometimes

But they come from a place I don't always find

I've held my tongue till it turned to fire

Let fear talk louder than desire

I've walked away just to feel in control

Left good love standin' out in the cold

I've trusted wrong I've doubted right

Stayed too long in a losing fight

I ain't proud of the nights I broke my own heart

But I own every scar every missing part

We reach for love then we run from it

Swear we're done but we circle it

We build our walls then pray they fall

Yeah we all do it all

We feel too much then we shut down tight

Cross our hearts still cross that line

Ain't weak or cruel just made this way

Yeah it ain't pretty when the truth sinks in

When you're starin' at the girl you've always been

Mirror don't lie don't sugarcoat

Just shows every crack you learned to hold

I've loved with fear I've stayed with pain

Poured cheap wine on real shame

Ain't sayin' I'm healed ain't sayin' I'm saved

Just still standin' here bruised but brave

I ain't askin' for pity I ain't playin' the blame

Just callin' it honest callin' it pain

If you've ever felt too much and still stayed strong

You know this truth - you're not alone

We reach for love then we run from it

Swear we're done but we circle it

We build our walls then pray they fall

Yeah we all do it all

We feel too much then we shut down tight

Cross our hearts still cross that line

Ain't weak or cruel just made this way