Lyrics
I been tryna get away from the thoughts in my dome
Hittin' every little habit just to not feel alone
Put a song in my ears, let it pull me from the zone
But the silence always creep back when I'm walkin' home
And the highs feel nice till they fade too fast
Every fix I ever chase never seems to last
Been searchin' for a heaven I can't hold in my grasp
Just a moment where my heart ain't stuck in the past
I been lookin' for a break from the weight in my chest
Tryna numb the little voices that don't ever rest
But the peace that I find never settles as best
Breathe slow, decompress
I been doin' anything just to get out my head
Tryna drown out the fears that I left unsaid
Music, drugs, love, still I break instead
Yeah it's only temporary when I feel that dread
Every time I get close to feelin' somethin' real
It's like my mind pull me back to the things I conceal
Try to lose myself in bodies or the way a beat feels
But the pain stay stickin' like it's glued to my heels
And I hate how I bend just to feel enough
Makin' deals with my demons when the nights get rough
I been holdin' on weak, tryin' actin' like it's tough
But the truth is I'm breakin' when the glamor cuts
Every time I chase comfort, it just slips through my grip
And I fall right back down on the same old script
Swear I'm tryna climb out but I lose my lift
Hold tight, don't quit
I been doin' anything just to get out my head
Tryna drown out the fears that I left unsaid
Music, drugs, love, still I break instead
Yeah it's only temporary when I feel that dread
Maybe someday I'll learn how to sit with the pain
Let it pass through my chest like a slow cold rain
But for now I keep driftin', tryna stay in the frame
Mhm... still searchin' for sane