Lyrics
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the windows
Monster, there are voices
In the darkness
And they say they won't go (yeah)
Stare long enough at the abyss and it seems to start to stare back at you
Lost inside my head, is a scary place I've adapted to
Friends and family call and I tell 'em that I'll get back to you
Too busy on my phone, doomscrollin', spent the afternoon
Stressed out, head down, can barely leave my bed now
I hate these fuckin' feelin's, they tell me to try these meds out
But doc, we've only talked for like ten minutes, I'm sketched out
Paranoid, can't tell if these people are foes or friends now
You know what it feels like to feel like nobody can help?
On top of that feel like you're losing yourself
I wouldn't even wish my enemies the hand I was dealt
Thought I could pay the pain to fade with some material wealth
But tears fallin' in the Tesla, I guess it's kind of ironic
To feel so fucking broke inside somethin' I always wanted
My demons came to play, it feels like my brain may be haunted
Hate myself sometimes as much as they hate on me to be honest
I saw fentanyl take the life away from my cousin
I watched alcohol steal the life away from my dad
I came from nothing, now I'm scared that might be what I'm becomin'
Look in the mirror, barely recognize the one lookin' back, so
Monster, how should I feel?
Creatures lie here
Looking through the windows
Monster, there are voices
In the darkness
And they say they won't go
Wrote a song when my dad passed and they said it was trash
That made me wish that I put less of myself into every track
I know you can't just burn the orchard when one apple is bad
But the fact of the matter is that I feel I'm startin' to crack
And they say "Don't take it to heart," well, how the fuck do I not?
When I put my soul inside somethin' and they say it's a flop
Constantly tear my art apart when this is all that I got