Lyrics
In my unmade bed with this screen I never left
Is this all I could want? Is this all 21 is?
All my texts unread and a cup of comparison
'Cause I need the caffeine, and it's funny that she never did
'Cause my 6 years old self didn't cry
About the size of my waist or my nose or my thighs
And she never ran out of time
In her eyes
I wish that I could call her right now and get advice on this hell
She would've pulled me out by now
And if I really had to choose, me or her, I'd lose
'Cause she believed in me more than I do
All the nights I should've slept
But couldn't keep my hands to myself
They were too busy scrolling 'til five in the morning
'Til I have nothing left
And I don't really care what the mirror shows me
When my eyes are saying they don't even know me
'Cause now I'm jealous of the younger me
And she don't have to pay for therapy
I wish that I could call her right now and get advice on this hell
She would've pulled me out by now
And if I really had to choose, me or her, I'd lose
'Cause she believed in me more than I do
'Cause my 9 years old self didn't cry
About eating or breathing or songs she can't write
And she never hated the brown in her eyes
And she never waited to run out of time
Yeah, my 6 years old self didn't cry
About the size of my waist or my nose or my thighs
And she never ran out of time
In her eyes
I wish that I could call her right now and get advice on this hell
She would've pulled me out by now
And if I really had to choose, me or her, I'd lose
'Cause she believed in me more than I do
If I called her out, would she pick up now?