Float

Why can't I see that I'm the one who needs change

Everyone I love finds a way to run away

Leaving me alone like "Why you not stay?"

I know that it's me, how I handle my pain

And I'm sorry for the hurt that

I caused you to never make you wanna come back

You told jokes that I never could have laughed at

I was dealing with the trauma but you saw that

You tried to make change but I stayed in my place

So I'm sorry for my ways and the mistakes

I don't wanna stay same but it's too safe

Everything I say to make you stay

Now you're gone and I'm stuck here so alonе

I love you but I'm sorry that it couldn't show

We realizе all we have when we let it go

But it's too late now, we'll never know

I just gotta float

Don't you try to catch me

Please just don't think less of me

Cause my heart's broke

How'd this get so messy?

Why life's so depressing?

Act like a monster

Feel like an imposter

In my own life all the time, wonder how I lost her

That's not my problem, I don't gotta solve 'em

I don't fucking got the time to climb up from the bottom

All the time I was stuckof my mind

Think about how I just want some love in my life

Now I'm stuck in the state, wanna end my life

I'm just scared to say that so I tell her I'm fine

Say I'm OK but I'm not, really miss you

All the pain coming back but I can't call you

You're the only one who ever made the problems go away

You're the only thing that ever really made me wanna stay

But I did it to myself so I don't deserve your help

I'm in love with all the pain, I don't know if you could tell

I'm all caught up in my mind, I keep telling you those lies

I wish I never did, now you're outta my mind

Alone I'm here today like I'll be inside my grave

Never make a change so nobody ever stay

Go and let me be, 'cause I know this is my fate

That I finally had to float from mistakes that I've made