Ruin My Life

Oh-oh, oh

Mmm, mmm

Oh-oh, uh

Yeah

I stay up wide awake every night, yeah (Wake up every night, yeah)

It's the conversations running in my mind, yeah (Conversations)

I can't believe I've wasted all this time, yeah (This time)

And my memory replays it all the time, uh-uh

I'm medicated, intoxicated

Partying all the time

Don't even like it, I just fake it (I just fake it)

Am I just trying to fit in?

Don't want this life I'm living

I'm running out of options

And I think that maybe I should

Ruin my life

Maybe I should ruin my life (Ruin my life, yeah)

Maybe I'm just wasting my time, ay

So maybe I should ruin my life

And I think it's always funny that I'm always hiding (Always hiding)

I'm always fighting the void inside

But there's no use so I should ruin my life, ay

(I should ruin my life)

Maybe I should ruin my life

Oh-oh

And I don't even know where to start, yeah (Where to start)

Half the world won't stop telling me I'm fucking lost, yeah

(Yeah I'm lost)

This joy shit like a luxury, it cost, yeah

Cause my decisions seem to hang me on a cross, Oh-oh

I'm tired of waiting, I'm always faded

Infatuated with this reality that I've created (Yeah)

God, I'm so tired, give me a sign

Must be falling in too deep

Cause they keep telling me I'll

Ruin my life

They say that I'll ruin my life

They can't see the hell that burns in my eyes (Burns in my eyes)

So I think I should ruin my life

And I think it's always funny that I'm always lying

I'm undermining the void inside

It's what they want so I should ruin my life, ay

(I should ruin my life)

Maybe I should ruin my life

Oh-oh

And I just sit at night thinking why? (Thinking why)

Conversations with the sky

I keep trying not to cry

Cause this world tears me apart

Does it even have a heart

It just leaves me with these scars

Guess this ain't new to me (This ain't new)

But every day's another shot to make it big

Don't give up, yeah

And it's the only thing that I got

I don't ever wanna ruin my life (I don't ever wanna)

I don't wanna ruin my life (Ruin my life)

I'm so terrified of wasting my time, ay (I'm so terrified)

So I don't wanna ruin my life (Ruin my life)

And I know it's somewhere out there

I gotta find it, the joy inside (Gotta find it, yeah)

It's in my blood so I can't ruin my life

(I don't wanna ruin my life)

I don't wanna, I don't wanna

Ruin my life

I don't wanna ruin my life

Ruin my life

Ruin my life