Lyrics
Hey I still recall the day the doctor told me that
I was sick, yeah my mind keeps going back
It was a trip, like I was thinking he ain't know the facts
Probably because my heart couldn't get a hold of that
He said that I was terminal and that it spread quick
And my whole body was infected, I'm desperate
My mind's racing at this point, I want to exit
Cause all these tests suggested I'd be dead quick
But honestly man, I really should have seen the signs
I was blind though, I couldn't read between the lines
I was numb so I couldn't feel my fever climb
But my whole system was fail, like comedic lines
The way they treat it, fine
I staggered out like I was drinking wine
I wasn't even trying to think about my plans for the evening time
All I could think was I was weak and dying
I was reminded of the life that I would leave behind
And so...
I know it's ending for me soon and I'm terrified
I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die
But it ain't looking good for me, nah
It ain't looking good for me, for me
I know it's ending for me soon and I'm terrified
I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die
But it ain't looking good for me, nah
It ain't looking good for me, for me
I got home and it hit me in the worst way
I've been sick with this disease since my birthday
I was ridden with symptoms since my first day
Head to toe, my whole system in the worst state
I was mentally ill, I was futile in mind
Darkened in my understanding, was a student of crime
Having eyes couldn't see cause I was truthfully blind
Having ears couldn't hear but couldn't do any signs
Throat was an open grave, tongue used for the lies
Snake venom under lips which I would use to divide
Had chips on my shoulder, was wounded inside
Both my lungs collapsed, inhaling second hand pride
Below the waist was just more of the same
Feet swift to shed blood if something more was to gain
Man this bad blood simply poured through my veins
Can't ignore it anymore, ain't the story insane
I was in pain and so...
I know it's ending for me soon and I'm terrified
I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die
But it ain't looking good for me, nah
It ain't looking good for me, for me
I know it's ending for me soon and I'm terrified
I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die
But it ain't looking good for me, nah
It ain't looking good for me, for me
My whole life had been exposed as dark
My disease and my deeds hitting off the mark
But I had loved my illness even from the start
Like everything was a symptom of my broken heart
It pumped corruption to every single part of me
It pumped death and deception through arteries
My direction was set to invest in reflecting deception
And threatening my best and my death wasn't far from me
Could try to beat the symptoms now
It wouldn't matter cause my heart would keep me living fail
I was helpless and hopeless, it's ending now
Unless somehow I get a new heart, well this is how
I heard that there were others with the same plight
But there was one begotten Son who could save life
And His heart was so perfect, it gave light
My heart of stone has been exchanged, I've been changed, right?
I know it's ending for me soon and I'm terrified
I'm afraid of what's coming and I'm scared to die
But it ain't looking good for me, nah
It ain't looking good for me, for me
I was told that God's standard is so high
And my broken heart kept me from meeting His standard
So I just kept falling short over and over and over again
There really was nothing I could do
It was not looking good for me
I guess my question for you is
Since God's standard is perfection
And none of us meet it
How do you plan on getting by?
I know how I do it
And to be honest, I ain't worried about a thing