Ten-Year Ghost

Ten years on the same four walls

Calendar curled like a dying flower

Friends got rings, got cribs, got titles

I got playlists, drafts, and hours

Mom said"one more year, then choose"

I said"this is it, I swear I'm close"

Every almost felt like proof

Then the silence came, ate the hope

I give up now

Let the dream die slow in the back of my throat

I've bled too loud

For a world that don't answer, don't wanna know

Ten-year ghost

Fading out of a life I don't own

I give up now

'Cause holding on hurts more than letting it go

Inbox full of"love your work"

Then the"but" hits hard like a car, no brakes

Labels said"you almost there"

Left my heart on read for days

Saw my name on a tiny flyer

Said"this the start" to my shaking hands

Played for three drunk kids and a bartender

Caught my face in the bathroom glass

I give up now

Let the dream die slow in the back of my throat

I've bled too loud

For a world that don't answer, don't wanna know

Ten-year ghost

Fading out of a life I don't own

I give up now

'Cause holding on hurts more than letting it go

What if I was never special

Just stubborn and afraid to quit (yeah)

Called it passion, called it purpose

Really I was scared of this

I give up now

Let the dream die slow in the back of my throat

I've bled too loud

For a world that don't answer, don't wanna know

Ten-year ghost

Fading out of a life I don't own

I give up now

(yeah, I give up now)

'Cause holding on hurts more than letting it go