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Ten years on the same four walls
Calendar curled like a dying flower
Friends got rings, got cribs, got titles
I got playlists, drafts, and hours
Mom said"one more year, then choose"
I said"this is it, I swear I'm close"
Every almost felt like proof
Then the silence came, ate the hope
I give up now
Let the dream die slow in the back of my throat
I've bled too loud
For a world that don't answer, don't wanna know
Ten-year ghost
Fading out of a life I don't own
I give up now
'Cause holding on hurts more than letting it go
Inbox full of"love your work"
Then the"but" hits hard like a car, no brakes
Labels said"you almost there"
Left my heart on read for days
Saw my name on a tiny flyer
Said"this the start" to my shaking hands
Played for three drunk kids and a bartender
Caught my face in the bathroom glass
I give up now
Let the dream die slow in the back of my throat
I've bled too loud
For a world that don't answer, don't wanna know
Ten-year ghost
Fading out of a life I don't own
I give up now
'Cause holding on hurts more than letting it go
What if I was never special
Just stubborn and afraid to quit (yeah)
Called it passion, called it purpose
Really I was scared of this
I give up now
Let the dream die slow in the back of my throat
I've bled too loud
For a world that don't answer, don't wanna know
Ten-year ghost
Fading out of a life I don't own
I give up now
(yeah, I give up now)
'Cause holding on hurts more than letting it go