Lyrics
Father, I wish I could've been a better son
But I try
Girl, I wish I could've been a better man
But I try
Could've been a better dad
But I try
I'm sorry I couldn't be what y'all expect
But I try
Pride and neglect made me the man who came with a family promise
And I must provide and protect
Funny how time flies
You get old and get wise
Ain't no winning for losing
Weakness is shown if you kind
Either they love it or they built to fear it
Music is life, you can feel and hear it
They never killed my spirit
Since 13, eighth grade, middle school
I started writing my own shit and it riddled cool
All of a sudden, all I wanted to ridicule
Gave me attention, that's when the bitches did it too
Venting, spit what I did and what I would do
Venting, writing this shit was all I could do
Heartbroken, child trauma, wild mama
Foul drama, now comma, foul karma
Huh, got me thinking 'bout the wonder years
When I lived to rap, now it's like I rap to live
Oh, I know I ain't the best, but I try, yeah
I know I ain't the best, but I try, try
I wish I could be a better son
Wish I could be a better man
Wish I could be a better dad
I'm sorry I couldn't be what y'all expect
But I try
Me and my pops was Starsky and Hutch
I don't know what I did, but I know now he don't talk to me much
He wonder why I be sparking it up
Fearing it'll kill my inspiration, like I can't record with a Dutch
Now we talking in texts, fuck is this?
I thought we was us
Where you at to support me, my crutch?
That type of shit would get Cory to clutch
Make me go in my cave, set up a wall, there's no way to touch
Blaming myself, all I did was follow your steps
I'd have followed my own, wouldn't follow regret
My daughter's mom drive me to death
She can fuck who she wants, around my kids, I won't accept
Thinking back, thinking back like
I should've cut school that day in '02, I wouldn't have did the smack
No buzz to follow, no deals to follow it with that
No snakes to con a whole bitch, trying to fix a trap
No friends, back at the twins', trying to fix a flat
That was life at its best, what I would give for that
I seen that you ain't different with your rap
How you use it just to give it back?
Fuck it
Oh, I know I ain't the best, but I try, yeah
I know I ain't the best, but I try, try
I wish I could be a better son
Wish I could be a better man
Wish I could be a better dad
I'm sorry I couldn't be what y'all expect
But I try