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Desecrated, creeping thin...
...But I'll take the temporary relief,
And I'll lie to myself and say
"This is who I always was"
Ballistic, I'll refuel delusion
Devoted and harmless
This is who I always was
Skip a frame
Repression at best
Original soul retrieval
Cherishing, wading, viscous, material soul
And you can watch me fall
Take a front and center
(Frantic)
Panic, smile, clutch
Manic inducing, the river's rising
It erodes, shaping the sands
It erodes, sculpting my hands
Cradling hands that unfold to release the remedy
My antidote
My elixir
It falls, and I with it
Asking: "Is this really me again, or pharmaceutical side effects?"
The world's tilted, and I am on the floor
In the coldest sweat continually
Fracturing hope to comminution
A sieve of teeth that strains waste again,
Hoping what's left is medicine
Euphoria washes over me like currents around and within
An unmedicated calm excites
It's turbulent and out of fucking nowhere begins (slips in)
Does it infiltrate to gestate?
Pushing up with everything that I have
I thought I was better...
I'm not at all, leaking through and under
It pushes down in and through my spine
And today I'll choose...
Who am I?
From torn feet to knee deep,
And I feel it splitting the two halves of my mind
Plummeting into water you brought with heavy rain
Sinking, I release all in my lungs
Submerge, and I exhale to aspirate
Lights out
Resuscitate
Submerge, and I exhale to aspirate
Nothing left from above
Lights out
Resuscitate
Can we awaken in peaceful arms?
...even hold each other harmed?
...even hold each other up forever,