Half Awake

I'm dressed up, phone flash, playin' my part Laugh too loud so nobody hears my heart

On the outside, I'm gold, I'm on, I'm fine But I go quiet when I'm alone

At night, I can be the light, I can be the spark I can be the fire in the dark

But when the music fades, I start to shake Wonder if the real me's too much to take

Cause I don't wanna spit myself in two Tryna be what you wanna see me as

If I let you in, if I tell the truth Would you hold me, or would you laugh

I'm half awake, I'm half asleep One side loud, one part of me still weak

If you see me when the mask comes off Would you stay, or would you leave

I'm half awake, I'm half asleep

Some love the shine, but they fear the shade They want the smile, not the price it takes

Say you're perfect when I'm in control Then act brand new when I lose my glow

I got a sweet side, got a sharp tongue too I got soft days and my scars come through

I'm tryna learn, I don't gotta hide To keep somebody by my side

I don't wanna edit all my edges down Just to fit inside your comfort zone

If I'm complicated, can you hold it now? Or do you only love the version you know

I'm half awake, I'm half asleep One side loud, one part of me still weak

If you see me when the mask comes off Would you stay, or would you leave

I'm half awake, I'm half asleep

Don't tell me be strong, I've done that Don't tell me you're fine, I'm past that

I don't need saving, I need truth Tell me you can love the whole me too

If I'm messy, if I'm quiet If I get scared and I don't fight it

Promise you won't turn away when I'm not okay

I'm half awake, I'm half asleep One side loud, one part of me still weak

If you see me when the mask comes off Would you stay, or would you leave

I'm half awake, I'm half asleep

I'm half awake, I'm half asleep