Life's Contradictions

I'm a beautiful tragedy

Trapped inside a brilliant mind

With absolutely no walls to contain me

I roam while standing still and

Breathe without inhaling

I speak best when silent

I find peace in violence

I am scared of everything

But fear absolutely nothing and no one at all

I stand tallest when broken down

I'm a loner with 100 best friends

All of them named adversity

I used to often pray to a God

That I didn't fully believe in

Have yet to atone for my sins

But then again, why do I need to when I seem to be

The epitome of innocence compared to most of them

I'm a man who frowns with the devil's grin

An angel, full of sin

Too impatient to learn how to fly

So I pluck the feathers of my own wings and

Place them inside my pillow case

In hopes that one day

I know what it feels like to sleep heavenly at night

Lately I've been seeing a lot of darkness in light

Yo, none of this is gonna make sense

I'm still just trying to make sense of it all

See no one told me having a gift came with

So much responsibility and consequence

Sometimes I feel trapped within my freedom

Like reality's illusion

I can't decipher when it's God or my conscience talking

They both tend to blend together to

Create this mute sound called confusion

I find sanctuary within the autistic minds

Of the children I used to teach from nine to five

The uneducated call them crazy

Shit, I call them free

This artistic mind of mine doesn't won't time to heal

But it will stop

For nothing

I tend to digress while trying to progress

And I know this sounds contradictory and none of this makes sense

But life is full of contradictions so how can this not make sense

They say I look just like my father

It's a shame, I wouldn't know

It's been so long since I've seen him