Sick

I'm still screaming for help

The way you hurt me was the fault of everyone else

And I stand along the roadside

With the cars coming toward me

I never told you how I thought about jumping

But I didn't know

If it would be easy

If it would be quick

If my body on the freeway

Would make you feel sick to your stomach

And you'd be so upset

And it makes sense that I'd save myself

For something like that

But not for me

I like pretending she's dead

That way she's not the only thing in my head

But I saw her walking past me on her way to the show

I couldn't move my legs

I thought I was about to explode

And it would be easy

It would happen so quick

For you to leave just like last time

And it's making me sick

To my stomach knowing that here I am

Waiting away

Counting the days for this to happen again

To me

You still find a way to blame me

You'll do anything to keep your conscience clean

The world could crumble in your hands

I know mine did

You didn't save me

And you'll still find way to blame me

It must have been easy

For it to happen so quick

Standing tall among the ruins

Does that make you sick to your stomach

Like it does to me

You say the knife was one you borrowed

But you're watching me bleed out now

And that was so easy

And it happened so quick

And it's not like how I fantasized

But I hope you're sick to your stomach

I hope you feel sick