Lyrics
I know it broke your heart the day I started using drugs
I'm sorry that your love for me was never quite enough
I'm sorry that I ran away when things were getting tough
But let me clarify this for the ones who feel the need to judge
You ever love something so much you gotta have it?
So you use it every day until you start to form a habit
Then before you knew what happened, you were suddenly an addict
That just wasted half the life and every dream they had was shattered
And now you're feeling hopeless, and you're broken and you're battered
'Cause the dope that you've been chasing, is the only thing that mattered
You've tried to break the cycle, and you've tried to break the pattern
But the hole you dug yourself is way too deep without a ladder
And I wish that I could take it back
Wish that I could take the pain
Wish that I could get on track
Wish I wasn't so ashamed
Need to just accept the fact that I'm the only one to blame
And straighten up my act, so I could go ahead and make a change
I'm sorry that I let you down (down)
I'm sorry you don't understand (understand)
Even if I never make it out (make it out)
I'll love you 'til the very end
Well, I just checked into this treatment
And I'm hoping deep inside that I'll last longer than the weekend
That's usually the time it takes for me to want to leave
And every fiber of my being says to play with all my demons
So give me something different
Give me something to believe in
I surrendered and accepted I'm defeated, and I'm beaten
But no one ever told me, it's the secrets I've been keeping
As I sit alone and isolate, I'm barely speakin', meetin'
'Cause my heart is full of hurt and hate
How could anyone relate?
No one really cares about me
I should go and hibernate
Somewhere by myself where I can constantly replay the tape
Of how I messed it up again, and now it's probably way too late
I have a therapist who says I need to open up
But really, I'm embarrassed, so I tell 'em that they know enough