Trashfire

i've become the kind of person that i hate--

tossing cigarette butts on the sidewalk in oakland.

never taking chances, always late,

always so numb and tired and broken.

i bite my nails when they're not polished--

my mother says one day i'll choke.

i used to hold my breath around my uncle,

now i'm breathing in the same smoke.

i used to be such a dreamer, now i'm so afraid of change.

i'm just sitting in my bedroom, happy that everything will

stay the same.

i'm being broken by this city

and i hate who i've become.

i'm being molded by this city

and now i don't know anyone.

i've been feeling so desperate to relate

to somewhere, something, someone, or sometime.

i was so bored i took yr bait,

and now i'm struggling to stay alive.

sitting in silence with my family,

we're all staring at the ground.

songs from bands you said you hated,

cuz you thought they weren't that profound.

i used to be such a dreamer, now i'm so afraid of change.

i'm just sitting in my bedroom, happy that everything will

stay the same.

but i made that promise to you that i knew i couldn't keep.

and i should have kept my mouth shut, cuz now i'm losing sleep.

i don't know what to tell you. i don't know what to think.

yr lying to everyone. i'm starting to sink.

i'm being broken by this city

and i hate who i've become.

i'm being molded by this city

and now i don't know anyone.