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I don't wanna say goodbye (Goodbye)
Baby
I don't wanna say goodbye (Goodbye)
But I can't let you go
I took the wrong way home
I'm wrong, I'm wrong
I keep an eye on every place I stay
I can't let you go
The hardest thing to do is to lose
My greatest fear is death
I was raised a Jehovah's Witness
Yesterday, I went home, I was helping my mom with her
Her talk for the Theocratic Ministry school
And she read, "There's nothing to fear because the dead know nothing"
I told her, "I wanna know everything"
I want to feel, I wanna be alive
It's too good
Even though the world is so bad
We love too deep to really ever be at peace, you know?
With the ones that have passed
I saw aunt there yesterday, Jaden and Kendall were with me
She said, I mean, she told 'em, "Thank you for my card"
It made me cry, I don't know why, I just
I break out and cry every day, I said, "That's okay"
It just means you're alive, you feel, you feel deeply
But is it?
We shouldn't have to feel pain or hurt, really
To have to try and release that ocean of sadness every day
How long is she gon' have to cry before she's okay?
I miss her happy tears
I miss having more happy days than bad ones
2020 Was a doozy, it was like blow after blow after blow
A lot of people lost a lot of people
A lot of people had to tap in with a lot of bad memories
Then we continued our talk and she told me how much
She fights to remember sometimes
She say, "You know, I got a little spell of Alzheimer's"
Your car smell like straight 1993
He's killing me, he's killing me
He's killing me
You're back
Yes, I am back
Sit, let me see this head of yours
Mm, look at all this growth
Do you see it? A lot of growing
Mm-mm
So much
And just like this hair, the only way we can live is if we grow
And we grow because we change
And we change because we have learned, baby
We have been exposed
Yes
And the only way that we become exposed
Is if we throw ourselves out into the open
But you know that now
I do know that, I do
So what is real and what is illusion, Marla?
Whatever I choose to believe