This Fragile Surface

I open up my eye and I, I open as my eye

I stare and let it read my mind, eye open as am I

Scanning through that tangled maze I lose myself again

Who am I whose eye defines the thoughts run through my head

And soon I find there's no way out, my eye is my guide again

Showing me around, these pathways so profound

Shining like the sun, I pretend it's just for fun

As he forces me to run again

Asking would you like to be my friend

Eye look into eye and I try to draw the line

Fight that lie and hide my fright, keep it out of mind

Far away I hear a voice that shouts and demands

Syllables and letters forming words of command

Closer now, then from inside, I think that I understand

Showing you around, these pathways so profound

Shining like the sun, I pretend it's just for fun

As I force you with a gun - run, run

Asking would you like to be my friend

I look into your eye, I pretend it's all fine

I keep living the lie, I look into your eye

(This fragile surface may hold the weight of all that's locked inside

But will it help you clean your slate, or do you just run and hide

You can run...)

This fragile surface white and blue if studied will reveal

There's something in the depths below that I cannot conceal

Through years and years of acting and the practice of my stare

Has made it easy to escape if you didn't already know it was there

This fragile mirror of the soul reflects both fake and real

But before you see too much of me I'll turn or keep it sealed

So I face the ground and hurry on, I run from how I feel

To tell you 'bout my self-inflicted wounds that will never heal