Lyrics
When I'm gone, I hope it takes no thought at all
To reminisce at our old photos, stuck to rotted wall
Picturesque, full of lovely dreams
I'd never wanna let 'em know how the mighty would fall
Days at the start line, simple, fragile, frail
Somehow the dark room washed out their every detail
When did our hearts lose pulse and tip the scale？
Who was I back at the start? Young, foolish, idealistic
Thinking I could take what was perfect and "fix it"
Sinking even lower, life was good, now it's twisted
Deals with the devil that I should have resisted
Watching, waiting, conscience fading
Romance-speak like "hopes and dreams" are just one
Reality is made of many, I'm out-gunned
Watching, waiting, my self-hating
Never figured why I was surprised to find
Half-truths are an alibi for straight up lies
Now feels like I'm singing six feet underground
This heart is beating without any sound
There are no second chances for me
Nobody's likely to come back around
Upon the ashes of what once grew here
I'll plant a seed and depart by night fall
Was I the hero no one believed？
Was I the villain after all？
Innocent days are in distant hindsight
And the imminent nostalgia, it hits and blind-sides me
What remains couldn't match the dream
Or explain how it all went so down-stream
Watching, waiting, conscience fading
More alone now than ever before
A wretched God of a mess on a dusty castle floor
Watching, waiting, my self-hating
Good to be the hate-sink, I can take the blame
Collect power from the pointless pain, uh
People wanna see the beauty where there is none
In a world that doesn't compensate anyone
Afraid of ugliness, they back away and run
Look at me directly, we're not done
Sometimes to do what's right
You have got to fight
Tooth and nail to break rules and chase the light
I can't stop the noise, I can't sleep tonight