MIXED FEELINGS

Mixed feelings

Mixed feelings

I don't know how to deal with these mixed feelings

I don't get it

Mixed feelings

only bubbled black on my scantrons

Tryin to boost the scores

In class with the white & the Indian folks

Honor roll

I'm the Captain of the hoop team

I'm the Mvp but who's countin score

Got suspended for fightin somebody

He called me a never heard it before

I dated a white girl then another white girl then another white girl jus like my pops

I cheated on that one I cheated on that one I cheated on that one then spun the block

I chill wit my white friends they stole a bike then they lit it on fire they do that a lot

I went back to my crib cuz I wasn't like them but i look out my crib here come the cops

Mixed feelings

Mixed feelings

I don't know how to deal with these mixed feelings

I don't get it

Mixed feelings

Mixed feelibgs

My momma white

My daddy black

My grand momma was racist what's up wit that

She said I ain't like the rest of em

I don't get it, mixed feelings

Moved to the hood when my parents split

Big house to lil one this is embarrassing

Go to school i look like everybody else now

Except I don't, I feel left out

this & that & who we scrappin

Handshakes I ain't scene before I'm peepin fashion

Gettin clowned cuz the hand me down clothes I'm rockin

They say that im dressing white this is backwards

everybody trappin cuz necessity

everybody wanna mess wit me they testin me

askin me where i come from because im talkin proper

Thinkin that my mom must be a lawyer or a doctor

Then they found out I can hoop & I can rap to that's mad coo but strange cuz I don't move like a black dude & I don't have no tattoos it's gotta be an act now they wanna kill me lighter fluid on my back

Mixed feelings

Mixed feelings

I don't know how to deal with these mixed feelings

I don't get it

Mixed feelings

Mixed feelings

My momma white

My daddy black

My grand momma was racist what's up wit that

She said I ain't like the rest of em

I don't get it, mixed feelings

Holdin my son he a quarter

& my wife is pregnant with my daughter

Wonderin what her completion bout to look like

Cuz honestly in winter time he look white

But maybe that's better he won't get stopped for goin 5 over the limit

He won't walk down the street & only get judged by his pigment

I'm At the gym they already makin jokes like who is this white baby all up in yo pictures it hits different

wonder if he grow up just like logic

Justifying how he the same as the dudes he rock wit

Or maybe Thinkin like this is my problem & im toxic but can't help but wonder how the melanin gone turn to gossip cuz his brother darker they might think that one of thems adopted like my neighbors did when I was 6 & showed up wit my momma so he got the pass to say it or he gone get strange responses will they say it's outta pocket try to run him for his pockets mixed feelings

Mixed feelings

I don't know how to deal with these mixed feelings

I don't get it

Mixed feelings

Mixed feelings

My momma white

My daddy black

My grand momma was racist what's up wit that

She said I ain't like the rest of em

I don't get it, mixed feelings