Threads

Pick apart the threads

That bind me to this existence

Diamonds cut apart the light

That dances on the window frame

My head is heavy

Pressed upon the glass

The cracks are cutting through the blue

Mixing in with my blood

Painting moments purple

A ghost of colour in the grey

Pull apart the threads

That hold me together

Fingernails creep underneath my skin

Picking at the gaps in my memory

And like a loose string pulled

I unravel

I can't breathe without you

So why does sometimes being around you feel like I'm suffocating?

Every single time you tell me it will be okay

The knots inside my stomach tighten

I fucking hate my guts for thinking this is something I'll survive

You arrived like an avalanche

Unexpected and all at once

Suffocating and dangerous

A natural disaster

Burying all proof of light

I'm left crawling around in the dark

Searching blindly for oxygen

My lungs are screaming

I'm done with breathing

My vision blurs

I can't feel my legs

The stream of unconsciousness

Has me gripped inside its current

A river running through my swimming vision

And I'm overwhelmed

I can't keep my hands from shaking

I past the point of getting better on my own

My head is heavy

Pressed upon the glass

The cracks are cutting through the blue

Mixing in with my blood

Painting moments purple

A ghost of colour in the grey

I'm overwhelmed

I can't keep my hands from shaking

Night burns with eyes like fire

Night burns waking desire

Night burns my funeral pyre

The night burns

Night burns with eyes like fire

Night burns waking desire

Night burns my funeral pyre