A Little Trauma Can Be Illuminating, And I'm Shining Like The Sun

(You did good, $lick)

(Wetto, wetto)

Lately I been feelin' like I don't know who the fuck I am (don't know who I am)

Tryna figure out where the stage ends and I begin (where do I begin?)

'Til the bitter end, I proceed with a hollow heart

Cut my wounds and call it art, watch me as I come apart

Yeah, pull up Cullinan they wondering which sport I play (who is that?)

I say what I want and what you can't afford to say (no-no-no-north)

Unless I'm hollering "Grey" ain't much else I gotta say (Grey, Grey, Grey)

I made the gang and I made the way, and I made the wave and it's here to stay

Yeah, fakin' a smile while I'm flexin' (I can't go)

Alarm going off for my antidepressant (I can't go)

My girl is up early and bitchin' and stressin' (I can't go)

About how I'm here but I'm lackin' in presence (I can't go)

I tell her, "I love you," but it's lackin' essence (I can't go)

And now I remember just who I am

But give me a pill this one for the win

I'm gone again

Gone

My type of vacation is isolation

I wanna be left alone, gonna see how long I hold

Until I end up fighting off temptations of self-annihilation (Self-annihilation)

I'm holdin' myself hostage by all of this emotional blockage

I can't fuckin' stop it now, it's all coming out (it's all coming out)

A verbal kind of vomit, I wish I could gut it out (gut it out)

Take away my stomach, fucking rip it all apart

A hollow cage of calcium that used to hold my heart

I know I'm meant to be alone

(Holding myself hostage by all of this emotional blockage)

I can feel it in my bones

And in my soul

(Holding myself hostage by all of this emotional blockage)