I'm Tryin'

Girl I’m Tryin

But I got demons locked up inside

I can't hide em no more

Verse 1:

Why am I all alone in this home that's not a home?/

Just wanna talk to you & see where it all went wrong/

I want you to call my phone, you wanna be on ya own/

You used to be my rock but now you turned my heart to stone/

I start to doze inside my car cause all the bars are closed/

I call some hoes I smell like perfume needa wash my clothes/

It's how I cope and yes I know that it's not what I need/

Cause these other woman are so heartless they don't fuckin bleed/

But you cared so much, maybe I was scared to trust/

I wasn't prepared for you, I wasn't prepared for us/

You were always there with love I was never there enough/

Never gave my all because there's things that I'm embarrassed of/

But you want me to go, then I'm going I'm not slowin/

And I feel so much pain that you know I ain't showin/

And I wish I could change girl I tried and I have prayed/

I just wish that I could put my pride aside and say, can I stay/

Hook:

Girl I’m Tryin

But I got demons locked up inside

I can't hide em no more

Tears keep falling to the floor

Yea, I’m tryin

All of these scars they remind me my minds been at war

You deserve so much more

Girl I’m tryin

Verse 2:

My inner demons force me, to do these things it's sorcery/

I think this drinks the source when IT starts calling me like Georgie/

Just know that I don't blame you, for what our life has came to/

I have some deeper issues still have yet to find my break through/

I don't know why I'm like this, just know I tried despite this/

Because I truly feel the love we left behind was timeless/

I hate this shit but I hate myself more/

Why did I blame you for the things I shoulda blamed myself for/

I was too cold to see that, you tried to find where in my soul I bleed at/

Been tryna open up but something kept on holding me back/

Just know I carry secrets & I'm too scared to leak it/