My Mind Won't Let My Heart Be

I used to feel so much

I'd wake up in a haze

Distorted proportions

Of past bodiless voices

Screaming my name

I used to crave your touch

Sick to my gut every day

And I'd be tossing and turning

Up 'til dawn every morning

How did I live that way?

Now I get so high

And I ride the wave down

Oh I get so damn high and I ride

And I feel fucking stupid

I feel fucking dumb

Like I don't fucking know

How to be someone

To anybody I'm fucking

Or who's fucking me

I used to feel something

I used to be free

But now

My mind won't let my heart be

I used to suck it up

Keep a stiff upper lip

Oh cause I'd rather stay quiet

Than incite a riot

But I'm through with that shit

I used to shut my mouth

For fear of hearing my thoughts aloud

But keeping 'em caged

Only made 'em enraged

And now they're fighting to get

Out

To get

Out

To get

Out

Out

Now I get so high

And I ride the wave down

Oh I get so damn high and I ride

And I feel fucking stupid

I feel fucking dumb

Like I don't fucking know

How to be someone

To anybody I'm fucking

Or who's fucking me

I used to feel something

I used to be free

But now

I feel fucking stupid

I feel fucking dumb

Like I don't fucking know

How to be someone

To anybody I'm fucking

Or who's fucking me

I used to feel something

I used to be free

But now

My mind won't let my heart be

My mind won't let my heart be