can't let my guard down

I'd let my guard down

But you get so dramatic

I can't mess up you won't forget it

Like it's photographic

And if we fall out

I'm not sure if I'll manage

I think I'm codependent

Won't tell you, that's oversharing

I wish I could tell you why I'm mad

But I don't want you finding more red flags

And I know I can't open up my back

I can't write a love song

And when I try it feels wrong

Fill my lungs so I can't feel a thing

Haven't slept in days

My eyes peeled open from adrenaline

I wish I could be your sedative

How could I repair us

I can't put together sentences

I'll try to fix things by myself

By emulating someone else

I can't admit when I need help

But I will when it's over

I'll be waiting by the edge, of what I was built on

Contemplating if I let us go on too long

Why even try to waste my time

Still don't understand my mind

How could I be in your life

If I can't control mine

I'd let my guard down

But you get so dramatic

I can't mess up you won't forget it

Like it's photographic

And if we fall out

I'm not sure if I'll manage

I think I'm codependent

Won't tell you that's oversharing

I wish I could tell you why I'm mad

But I don't want you finding more red flags

And I know I can't open up my back

I can't write a love song

And when I try it feels wrong