Shadows

Ayo I'm billing up in Clissold Park

It's out the crib again - every other night

Surfing at a different friends

Caring for your parents gets so hard trying to live with them

It's part of the life resenting all that time you have to give to them

Tensions start to rise - divides growing bigger

They say that time heals - but time can't fix her

Start feeling anger - know that you shouldn't be

Envying what others have - wondering what could've been

Back up in these streets again

Traipsing through East again

Had to duck my yard - she gone and had beef again

She started acting crazy - telling me to leave again

I'm packing up some garms walking Stokey high street again

(Ayo it's me again)

(Can I crash at yours and borrow P again?)

It's just that circular lifestyle

Had to get my head clear - had to sort my life out

It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim

And yeah it's only growing weaker

Crushed by the tide all the while we just tried to swim

And when that love gets no easier

The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist

Or when you're trying to replace this

Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin

Aware of the time that's remaining

I said you wouldn't understand

I need my mother's hand

Don't need no greed from no other man

Saying all he need is another grand

And so I snap she snaps back like a rubber band

And boom I'm out of the house - different couch

The same words from a different mouth

Saying all we need is to spit it out

Cause she's the one I couldn't live without

Just another browning

They say I'm clowning

Trust - am I waving or am I drowning?

I can't stay - can't blame my surroundings

But can't forget the day that they found him

I couldn't move mountains

Instead I stood still

I couldn't move didn't look real

Don't give a fuck how you feel

It's too ill, ayo it's

It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim

And yeah it's only growing weaker

Crushed by the tide all the while we just tried to swim

And when that love gets no easier

The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist

Or when you're trying to replace this

Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin

Aware of the time that's remaining

Sat in the kitchen with the lights off

4 In the morning and I can't sleep

Cause every time I drift off it feels like I can't breathe

Hear my ribs bouncing with my heartbeat

Then my vision slows again

It's like I froze again

Clutching at my chest

Feeling like it's turned to stone again

And then that image shifts

We're sat up on that bridge side spinning sticks

Trade my dreams for your secrets

Then the waves turn to static

Reminiscing on young Manik lighting zoots off them matchsticks

Nah it weren't determined and it's hardly planning

And if they never heard me then it hardly happened

I'm standing knee-deep in madness

Trying to pull it loose in the ICU

Hoping mumsy's pulling through

Hoping mumsy's pulling through

Cause we're desensitised - but we ain't bulletproof

It hurts when you look into their eyes and the fire's dim

And yeah it's only growing weaker

Crushed by the tide all the while we just tried to swim

And when that love gets no easier

The pity starts to rise no matter how hard you try resist

Or when you're trying to replace this

Unattached minds trying to thrive in this life of sin

Aware of the time that's remaining