By the Time You Read This (I Will Already Be Dead)

By the time you read this

I will already be dead

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It is only to be read

By the time you read this

I will already have been killed

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But notify my next of kin

Self administrate your estate

Pick up the pieces and give them away

Let them take all the things they want and dispose of yourself

Photographs and notes go into the sink

Under all the hot water the faucet could give

Now my dreams are just running ink going down the drain

By the time you read this

I will already be gone

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But realize what you have done

By the time you read this

It will already be true

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Just understand what you made me do

By the time you read this

I will have gone the way that good men go

When they go bad

Where they go bad

By the time you read this

I will have gone to the place where good men go

Where they go wrong

When they go wrong

By the time you read this

I will already have been changed

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After I've experienced maximum pain

No longer good to anyone

And never would be again

Know that I spent my final days

Endlessly tying the endless loose ends

One last look around the place

The sun shining into empty rooms

For the final time, I close the door that will open for someone new

The only change I make before I leave is in the bedroom of my dreams

Where I cover walls in deep blue paint

Rather than my blood and my brains, oh