Letras
Stomach full of nothing, still it sends it back
Swallowed down the morning, watch it all come up black
Puking like I'm praying, knees bent to the floor
Porcelain altar waiting, like those years before
A war inside my stomach, I'm losing every round
Feeding something hungry, but can't keep anything down
I'm so fucking tired of the war beneath my skin
My body spits me out, my mind won't let me win
Throwing up my food, throwing up my voice
Cleaning up the wreckage, cause I never had a choice
Erasing what's left of me, just to make it through the day
I'm just fucking wasting away, I'm wasting away
My brain's full of static, can't find my own name
Watching from my grave, and my mind takes the blame
I'm too loud and too quiet, too much and not enough
The voice inside keeps counting, all the ways I've messed life up
Fog where thoughts should be, noise where silence lived
I keep losing pieces of me, to ones who call this sin
I'm so fucking tired of the war beneath my skin
My body spits me out, my mind won't let me win
Throwing up my food, throwing up my voice
Cleaning up the wreckage, cause I never had a choice
Erasing what's left of me, just to make it through the day
I'm just fucking wasting away, I'm wasting away
I handed you a map of everywhere I hurt
You left it on the counter, another thing that don't work
I pour out like black water, you complain that I'm too wet
I shrink down to a whisper, and you forget, forget, forget
Love was supposed to listen, but all I can hear is air
I keep showing up bleeding, to those who are never there
If I just keep puking up my words and love
And no one wants to help me clean it up
Then why should I keep eating?
Why should I keep feeding?
If I'll just keep fucking bleeding, barely sickly breathing
I'll never stop needing to fill this blackened void
Every part of me destroyed
Mind, heart, and body all fucking destroyed
I'm so fucking tired of the war beneath my skin