CHILDISH

Console myself

When I look into the mirror"I'm me, not her"

I tell myself

It's already been eight years

But how can I heal when I still hear

The vicious words she'd make me say

Still feel her nails dig in my brain

Her rotten blood flows through my veins

Swear I'll move on just not today

Cuz it's complicated

This ain't half of it

If she knew what she put me through

She would cut herself off too

I know it's childish to hold a grudge

But I'm holding on just this once

Cuz I still see too much of her in me

I never feel uglier

Than when they say I look like my sister

It's not as mean as it sounds

You'd understand if you were 'round back then

Oh, cuz I've never met

A more bitter girl

A colder heart

She tore my whole life apart

When we were kids we'd play pretend

Now she just plays the victim

If she knew what she put me through

She would cut herself off too

I know it's childish to hold a grudge

But I'm holding on just this once

Cuz I still see too much of her in me

I never feel uglier

Than when they say I look like my sister

And I'll be willing to talk

When she's willing to listen

Cuz people claim that she's changed

But I know she's no different

Same old girl begging for pity

Blaming me for life being shitty

So I won't waste my breath

Never again

If you knew what she put me through

You would be scared of her too

I know it's childish to hold a grudge

But I'm still holding on cuz

I hate my face cuz I can see hers in it

But she won't change, so I'll learn to live with it

And I don't care, you can call me childish

But I never feel uglier

Than when they say I look like my sister