SEVERANCE

So I'll never leave here

You'll leave at five

Do I have a family

You'll never know

Yeah, feels like I'm fighting for my life

Fighting for an image that'll no longer suffice

Fighting just to find a way to keep on all the lights

Is it Severance or reality? I live a double life, yeah

You let the world steal your joy and take away your passion

Became a writer but your words never match your actions

You got a lot of growing up to do

A lot of trauma stored and buried

Yeah, I get it, it's uncomfortable

The archives and files you don't seek

With chapters of lost

Arcs and memories incomplete

Dissociate on the daily

Existing within a dream

Consumed and misused

The guidance you let seep

I read a quote the other day that left me stumbled in thought

It said that just because we wander doesn't mean that we're lost

Sometimes I wish that I could talk to my shadow

Feels like a corpse or that the data's been corrupted

And my mind's forever gone, yeah

Look, I tap into my spiritual side

These one-on-one convos, I ain't talking to God

See, me and him haven't spoken after my grandpa died

And I've been traumatized in a battle over ego and pride

It's three AM, I lie awake and never find sleep

I can't help but feeling like the world's against me

How many times can you look me in the eyes

Promise that you'll always stay, but in the end, they all fucking leave

Damn, I don't want therapy, I want loyalty

And tell me why's it never love and always royalties

Confused by the web and these comparisons

I tread the line of self-belief and fucking arrogance

If arrogance is loving myself

These double standards in society surrounding mental health

Damn, I just wonder who will catch me when I fall

If I slip, pray I never lose it all

Who gon' stick around

You know, like, eventually we all have to accept reality

So, here it is

I am a person

You are not

I make the decisions, you do not

I was taught to wear my heart on my sleeve

But lately it's been getting harder to breathe

Feels like I'm caught in a dream

Stuck in a cycle that just plays and repeats

So much reality gets harder to read

Is it all make-believe?

Or what we see is all the trauma that's breached

And then we alter our perception when the files delete

Is the illusion that we're free when Lumon's holding the key

At five p.m. we hit reset, but is it true that we leave?

See, it's the pain that makes us able to appreciate the love

It's the healing through eternal wounds that lifts each other up

You can spend forever hiding, but the distance ain't enough

To ever cover all the drama circulating from your blood

Lashed out inheritance on the ground

A badge of honor where trauma is nothing but passed down

I'm trapped in this glass house

I see no escape route

The chip's forever embedded inside of my head now

Throw a party just to deviate the feeling that we're never going home

Stare at numbers on a screen without a clue of what's below

Down the hallway in the break room, the tears apart your soul

And lose connection to your outie or a thread of having hope

MDR, Cold Harbor, man this life is insane

I used to wish I had a switch to run away from the pain

But being numb is not the answer to the problems we face

Cause even Severance couldn't sever the connections we've made

Is this Severance or reality

I live a double life, yeah

Is this Severance or reality

I live a double life, yeah