College

Outside

Another clouded mind

Another clouded sky

But your eyes shock me back to life

You say you don't know why I'm sad

Well I don't know either

But I know something needs to mend

But my body won't fix the havoc on my end

I don't want to go home

But you need some time to grow on your own

I wonder why I can't feel the same

But I only have myself to blame

And yes there's days I cry

Because my emotional integrity is as weak as the heart in me

When I try to say I'm fine

The future is frightening my fragmented mind

So why do I feel this way?

When all that long for is change

But I'm scared when nothing stays the same

I don't want to run

I don't want to hide

But I fear the world outside

Will the ink on my body forever mean the same?

Does my place inside your heart still pulse when you hear my name?

I don't want to go home

But you need some time to grow on your own

I wonder why I can't feel the same

But I only have myself to blame