Mobbin' in the shadows, they ain't notice, now I'm blowing
Seems like yesterday, when we was rapping on them torrents
Celebrations heavy, felt like Messi, cuz we scrorin
Got my youngins out in Mali, that consider me a foreign
Diamond chandeliers, I'm tryna handle me a fortune
But the haters persevere, cuz they cant stand to see me balling
Pulled up in the Matte black, I told em I imported
Ride out for my older brothers who couldn't make it to the morning
Tried to find some closure so I put it to the pen
Found my peace in writing stories, by the time, that I was 10
Dropped a couple g's for all the schools that I'd attend
I got tired of the faking, sorry I couldn't see the plan
See I shoulda held it down, she got tired of the lies
Since she really gone and left me, I've been steady w my guys
I know you you find it hard, but some do really try to change
The past in every story always end up being the same
Prada and Vlone, watch lil shawty try to slide
Louis and Dior, she wanna share it her guys
Ferragamo, Gucci I can see it in her eyes
She could really use somebody, with expensive kind of ties
She got a lot of problems, she just leave em to the xan
And tryna get some help, that shit went really outta hand
The mirror she portraying is just really a disguise
You can tell she's really hurting when you look her in the eyes
Said I apologize entirely, to the girl I hurt the most
I hope that you can hear this, know I made you feel alone
Admit that I was young, and I ain't never felt this way
I couldn't really say I'm sorry, but I felt it every day
You just being you, that's what I wish I understood
I built up on your problems, and I really know I shouldn't
I get that we still friends, I think I lost it in my head
Tryna rid of all my problems, keep on hurting you instead
And remember late night calls, miss the way we used to talk
For the times a nigga lost it, I've been slowly losing heart
When midnight hit the quarter, catch them Niggas in the dark
Set on real time, ain't no forges, we was spinning round the clock
And them hoopin days behind us, spent em evenings in park
Devastated by the losses, watch that fear gon really find you
The better days, stay indebted to my scars
And i find it really hard, watching demons tryna time you
And that's on me, I realize that's on me
I got feelings wrapped, that I can't let out in these streets
Niggas on the corner, watch it snow, la Bella vie
The real ones disappointed, man I learned that c'est la vie
This is what I know, man I've tried it all before
I had hoped for better days, began investing in my own
A wise guy once had told me, that the time I spent alone
Is a blessing for the riddance that I get off on my soul