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I watch her sometimes.
Just... moving through the room.
She leaves the window open when it's raining.
She doesn't even notice the water on the sill.
She leaves the keys in the door lock.
She walks away without looking back.
There is a... a blind trust in her movement.
A total lack of friction.
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But I'm walking behind her, and I'm checking the locks.
I'm looking at the time, I'm watching the clocks.
I'm sweeping up the dust that she kicks in the air
I'm fixing the things that she leaves in disrepair.
I call it "Entropy." The chaos of the day.
The jagged little edges that she doesn't put away.
She walks past a problem? She doesn't see the threat.
She hasn't learned the lessons of the safety net yet.
So I'm scanning the shadows, I'm guarding the wall
I'm acting like the goalie waiting for the ball.
I like the colors of the morning sky.
I don't worry about the how or the why.
If I stumble, I stumble. It's part of the dance.
I give every moment a second chance.
I don't see the danger you talk about.
I don't have the shadow, I don't have the doubt.
I'm just living. I'm just here.
Why is your face so full of fear?
See, that's the issue! That's the disconnect!
I'm trying to serve! I'm trying to protect!
It's not just the dust, it's the paper on the tray
The "Final Notice" letter that you just put away!
You left it on the counter like a magazine!
To me that's a bomb in the middle of the scene!
I saw the red ink and I started to shout
I started pacing the room, letting the panic out!
I'm sweating! I'm shaking! I'm losing my mind!
I'm reading the warning that you left behind!
And you... you just looked at me. You dropped to your knees.
Not because of the debt! Not because of the fees!
You were scared of the monster standing in the room!
You were scared of the man who was preaching the doom!
You weren't afraid of the letter until I screamed!
I'm the one who shattered the dream!
I know how to walk through the fire.
I just don't want you to trip on the wire!
It's not a mess, it's just... the process.
I don't want you to get hurt by the stress!
Life is heavy. Why are you on your knees?
It's the chaos! It's heavy! It makes me freeze!
I never asked you to fix it. I just asked you to stand tall.
But... I need to fix it all.
You don't have to fix me.
And that's the truth, isn't it?
I'm standing in the wreckage of a house that wasn't broken.
I'm choking on the words that I wish I hadn't spoken.
I look at your hands... they aren't shaking.
I look at my hands... and they are quaking.
And I realize... I don't want to change you.
I don't want you to be like me.
God, imagine two of us? We'd never be free.
We'd never breathe. We'd never sleep.
We'd be drowning in the secrets that we promise to keep.
I need you not to care.
I need you to leave the keys in the door.
I need you to ignore the dust on the floor.
Because when I look at you, and you're smiling at the rain?
It drains the poison right out of my brain.
I feed off your peace. I drink from your calm.
Your oblivious nature is actually a balm.
If I make you anxious... if I make you check the lock...
Then I lose the only thing that stops my ticking clock.
I'll try to check the lock sometimes.
I'll try to check the cracks.
Not because I see the ghosts...
But just to watch your back.
I'll help you hold the weight.
I'll try to close the gate.
So I'll leave the letter on the tray.
I won't say a word.
I'll just... watch you be happy.
Because I need that.
Yeah.
I need that.
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