Down & Out

Sleepless in bed, I've never been so restless

Body feels like lead and I can try

To lift my sheets, my strength has all faded

Like leaves left to the wind when they fall down

They float away and decay on unknown ground

And I feel like a candle left to melt

And soon becomes a mess of wax upon the shelf

I feel that I'll peel back the sheets someday

And show my face in the crowd

Until then I'll just stay down and out

I swear that this wasn't the way that

Things were ever meant to go down

I can't let the wick burn down and out

I wait and procrastinate existence

Yeah, that's an understatement

So I just try to sedate myself, it helps

When everything you say is so profound

To try to motivate or bring them down

By gaining new ground, translation so drowned out

And I don't want to be a candle left to melt

It's true, I'm trying every day to love myself

But I still have trouble with self-maintenance

At times I never want to see my face again

And I can say I still need help, I still need help

I feel that I'll peel back the sheets someday

And show my face in the crowd

Until then let's just say I'm down and out

I swear that I'm working to not be scared

My candle's wick is burned down

To say that I'm worth it is something else