I Swear I Swear

I died 3 times last night

I'm stuck inside my fucking casket

With my head up in flames

Thank God my schedule stayed the same

Delay on my happiness

Some porn, some booze to forget

You know you've hit rock bottom

When your best friend's guilt kills him instead

Panic attack on demand

Defense mechanism: to start a new band

Another complicated love story ends with another broken heart

New years resolution that fades into dust

I keep making promises just 'cause I must

Adhering to any religion I can

In the hopes I can stop this self-disgust

I feel so much, I need so much

And I'm at my wits' end

But how the fuck you deal

With this lost cause I call myself?

I swear I swear

I'll do my work and fall in line

I swear I swear

I won't put the pressure

Of my death on you this time

I swear I swear

I'll get rid of the cavities, warts

And the half-assed heart attacks

I swear I swear

You won't have to give up your time

To try and put me back on track

But I can't swear, that I can change

'Cause I can't seem to care at all

It's best for you to stay away

'Cause It'll hurt when you get the call