When I Hate Myself

There's a sadness in the way I've been walking

There's a comfort in the way that you listen

And I'm all out of words to keep on talking

You've got a way of filling space and fixing

I felt like I was home but I lost it

I can't find the cause

And it's bringing me to my knees

Nothing feels like home when I'm falling

So I keep on calling

'Cause I'm better with you next to me

When I get messed up

I wanna get out of myself

Yeah, I need your touch to feel like someone else

Now I'm all fucked up

'Cause I'm too proud for help

Yeah, I want you the most when I hate myself

And I don't know myself in California

I can't shake this fear it's gonna ruin me

'Cause I keep losing sight of the thing I'm after

When I shatter you tape me up piece by piece

When I get messed up

I wanna get out of myself

Yeah, I need your touch to feel like someone else

Now I'm all fucked up

'Cause I'm too proud for help

Yeah, I want you the most when I hate myself

You're driftwood in the ocean

I'm loose like sand

You're the catch when I'm falling

And I'm falling fast

Oh, I hate how I need you

'Cause you don't need me back

You've seen my worst

And no one knows me like that

When I get messed up

I wanna get out of myself

Yeah, I need your touch to feel like someone else

Now I'm all fucked up

'Cause I'm too proud for help

Yeah, I want you the most when I hate myself