NUMB

I don't feel fear anymore

Nothing feels safe

I don't feel anything

I used to wake up scared every day

My head never slows down

Now the fear is gone it faded away

And i don't feel better just empty now

I kept waiting for panic again

Waiting for my chest to explode

But nothing came back after that

Everything just went quiet and cold

I thought numb would save me somehow

But i don't feel anything now

I don't feel love i don't feel pain

I don't feel joy i don't feel shame

I don't feel fear i don't feel strong

I don't feel anything something's wrong

I feel like a puppet with no strings left

Like an empty shell just walking around

This body doesn't feel like home that's all i know

I breathe i move nothing feels real

I miss loving someone even if it hurts

Fuck yeah

I miss trusting people even when they lie

I know they fake it i know the truth

But i miss believing at least one time

One more time

Sometimes i want to restart my life

Erase my mistakes not fix them twice

I want a clean start not fixing the past

I'm tired of repairing what's already crashed

Where is the darkness when i'm tired of the light

Where is the light when the darkness consumes me alive

Where are the stars when the clouds turn black

Where is my voice when i fall into my head

I don't feel love i don't feel pain

I don't feel human i don't feel the same

I don't feel fear i don't feel safe

I don't feel present i just exist

I thought numb would save me somehow

But i don't feel anything now

I'm still here

I just don't feel it