Dirty Office Bongos

I tried to answer the phone when you called

I feel ashamed that I put you off for this long

I know that you will forgive me but I can't

Started thinking it's better if I just forget

I don't know why I'm anxious

It's hard to say, I know I fucked up again

I don't mean to neglect an, an invitation

An open hand to pull me out from this pit

I don't want to disappoint again

I know that things changed when I left

I hope when we talk you'll say you understand

I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent

It's hard to call home, you're waiting for days, dial and disconnect

Put off too long 'cause someday you'll be gone

And I won't notice, away in some state when I get the call

Seems I should grow

Replace me, a better family

He'll act his age

He'll know how to cope with what I've made

I know that things changed when I left

Pick apart why I get nervous

Try to force my faults to surface

I hope when we talk you'll understand

Try to change but I can't help it

I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent

It's hard to call home, you're waiting for days, dial and disconnect

Put off too long 'cause someday you'll be gone

And I won't notice, away in some state when I get the call

I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent

You've waited for days, dial and disconnect

I hope you know that I've kept all the notes that you sent

I've waited for days you're already gone

I wanted to notice

I wanted to know

But I can't change the way I am

It's harder to focus

My thoughts feel like static

You're gone and I wasn't there

I wanted to notice

I wanted to know

But I can't change the way I am

It's harder to focus

My thoughts feel like static

You're gone and I wasn't there