Not Anymore

Sometimes when the world spins

I'll stare outside and watch the rain slide down the windowpanes

And I can't breathe, the memories flood back in waves

And I'm waiting for you to knock on my door

And I'm waiting for you to need me once more

Now, when the night falls, I count every star

Wondering where you are, if you think of me

And I can't sleep, the silence is deafening

But I'm learning to live without your voice

Now I'm teaching myself how to make this choice

And you can never claim that I didn't give you everything

And you can never erase the promises you made to me

So watch me now

I'm gonna rewrite the songs that stuck in my head

The ones that you left

I'm gonna rewrite my heart to love you less

Don't second-guess

Baby, I'm gonna program myself to feel nothing

No heartbreaking, no shattering

Cause baby, when you left me all alone

I cried, I died

Delete the texts, burn the letters

Each day without you gets better

Unlearning all your favorite phrases

Reclaiming all the special places

I'm not the girl who will wait by the phone

I know I'm stronger on my own

I've rewritten the songs that stuck in my head

The ones that you left

I've rewired my heart to love you less

No second guess

Baby, I've programmed myself to feel something new

No looking back, I'm through

Cause baby, after you left me alone

I survived, I thrived

And I'm not waiting for you

Not anymore

So glad you walked out that door

I am not yours, not anymore