Sometimes when the world spins
I'll stare outside and watch the rain slide down the windowpanes
And I can't breathe, the memories flood back in waves
And I'm waiting for you to knock on my door
And I'm waiting for you to need me once more
Now, when the night falls, I count every star
Wondering where you are, if you think of me
And I can't sleep, the silence is deafening
But I'm learning to live without your voice
Now I'm teaching myself how to make this choice
And you can never claim that I didn't give you everything
And you can never erase the promises you made to me
So watch me now
I'm gonna rewrite the songs that stuck in my head
The ones that you left
I'm gonna rewrite my heart to love you less
Don't second-guess
Baby, I'm gonna program myself to feel nothing
No heartbreaking, no shattering
Cause baby, when you left me all alone
I cried, I died
Delete the texts, burn the letters
Each day without you gets better
Unlearning all your favorite phrases
Reclaiming all the special places
I'm not the girl who will wait by the phone
I know I'm stronger on my own
I've rewritten the songs that stuck in my head
The ones that you left
I've rewired my heart to love you less
No second guess
Baby, I've programmed myself to feel something new
No looking back, I'm through
Cause baby, after you left me alone
I survived, I thrived
And I'm not waiting for you
Not anymore
So glad you walked out that door
I am not yours, not anymore