Dying for Company

If I walked away from everything that's killing me

I wouldn't know which way to go, whoa (yeah)

If I said goodbye to all these things that's killing me

I, will I feel so alone?

Yeah, I'm dying for company

I'm dying for all the things that I love

What comes to mind?

The liquor and drugs, the feeling I get when I'm getting a buzz

The lies I keep telling myself when I run

I'm telling you now, from my heart and my lungs

I'm past the point of giving a fuck

And those that know me, they know that I'm stuck

Even though I be roaming and running amuck

I've been ready to die and that ain't a lyric

Them demons been siphoning all of my spirit

Demian ain't well, I'm barely coherent

I'm under a spell of fear, it's apparent

But no one can hear it, I'm screaming in vain

I reach for the sun, can't see through the rain

Don't know where to run, I just sit here and

Blame and pretend for a second I win the race, 'cause

If I walked away from everything that's killing me

I wouldn't know which way to go, whoa (yeah)

If I said goodbye to all these things that's killing me

I, will I feel so alone?

Yeah, I'm dying for company

Played all our time, I'm just lining my time

I wish I was dead, but I'm trying for life

Addicted to things that kill me inside

I'm looking for peace but I'm stuck in a lie

I fight for what's right, but it's killing my ties

Stuck between people who help me to rise

And no matter the things I try to apply

I always end up in the middle of fights

It ain't easy to choose to go up or to go right

So I do what I have to, to bring things to light

And I hope for the best but I'm losing the fight

It's stressing me out and I'm killing my time

And killing my stress with a bottle and line

Just let me get loose and I'll make it alright

But in the AM I'm back in the why

I'm stuck in a vortex consisting of lies, and yeah