Seasoned

I asked the elders to pray for me

I screamed

I cursed

I shouted

I didn't eat I could barely sleep

I cried a river bout it

I asked God where he was at

I laid my head in my mama's lap

I didn't hear laughter

Didn't see light

For forty days and forty nights

Oh the way my heart ached

It's like I felt my bones break

When I couldn't make the pain subside

I hung my head and died

Couldn't take no more no more no more

I was sure

But one Sunday morning I got up

And I was stronger than before

Tis the season now

I know everything it got a season now

Thank God, cuz I'm seasoned now

I was drowning

You baptized me

Through the fire

You purify me

And if I make my bed in hell

You come and find me

Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death

You walk right beside me

Couldn't take no more no more no more

I was sure

But one Sunday morning I got up

And I was stronger than before

Tis the season now

I know everything it got a season now

Thank God, cuz I'm seasoned now

I gotta resist turning tricks on demons

Just grabbed the Christmas bonus baby

Tis the season

I heard a soft man can make a woman hard

So it's safe to say that's miss leading

We came back from trick or treating

Everything seemed sweet til my teeth touched that mistreatment

Truth is what pains you can't sustain you

Depending how you looking at it

I know a queen wit a bad habit

Anxiety and sad addict

Such a traumatic past I ask

"How can she live in the now?"

Make love to me and not look back at it

So dramatic on many subjects

Manic on many evenings

Mad at earth, wind and fire