I Don't Want To Talk About It

Where do I begin?

You'd think I'd know by now

Where I come from

It's simply not allowed

To say your heart is breaking

To say those words out loud

To show your hand is shaking

To lay your armor down

I could tell you about the headaches and the car ride home

Tell you about the stitches and the broken bones

Or how when it's raining

I think of you sometimes

I could try explaining

Every roman candle I've lit

But I don't want to talk about it

You'd think I'd know by now

You'd think I'd understand

How to be alone

How to be a man

How to say I'm home now

How to say forgive me

I honestly don't know how

You'd actually believe me

I could show you round the houses that I grew up in

Explaining all the shit I'm carrying

Or how when you're near me

I finally start to see

Myself clearly

Though my life depends upon it

I don't want to talk about it